free flow

sometimes you feel like an open sore
it makes it hard to fucking soar
i just ran for the door
it hurt so bad, i hurt him back

make me feel like i tree
so then i can open up and be free
what will it take for me to see?
don't even know, which way to go

i asked for help what more can i do
sometimes it's hard to even tie my shoe
please just help me to just get a clue
guess i just gotta, go with the flow

fancy meeting you here
can i get you a cold beer?
did i see a glimpes of fear?
behind those eyes, every time

some call it baggage some call it life
we all have to walk through the strife
please don't stab me with that big knife
i walk alone to my car, then home

they say it's written on the wall
message to me in the bathroom stall
hope this isn't a humpty dumpty fall
god whispered to me, with elbows on the bar

how to create what i really want
can i even choose the perfect font
remember that story about the shot
she's shining her light, holding on tight

what do i even want to be known for
helping people so they're not sore?
or creating things no one has seen before
making it magic, attracting fanatics

i won't even be lost and alone
when i can just pick up my phone
i don't want to become a drone
calling all guides, to get me through this time

let go of all guilt and shame
it shouldn't be a part of the game
i don't know if i'll ever be tame
bohemian lives, fit just right

hipsters and scenesters become ring wrathes
constantly seeking to fill the space
never giving up the chase
seeking soul tribe, won't give up this time

kimchi stew

So my favorite restaurant City O' City has some really yummy kimchi stew, and i decided to make my own, it turned out soooo good!

so yummy!  i looked at a recipe just kind of made up my own

by adding bok choy and instead of tofu used quina. . . and added a little tomatos too

it's my new favorite thing!

i used zuke kimchi!  it's amazing

wholly

i ache for him
from head to toe
i feel the longing
right down to my bones
if today was my last
i'd want to be in his arms
there's no safer place
i feel cared for and warm.

he gently kisses my body
and stares intensely at me
it constantly makes me
feel weak in the knees
his love envelopes and
i can't hardly get free
i want to be with him
why, god, can't we be?

frequently frightened
he runs for the door
leaving me sobbing
a crumpled mess on the floor
leaving me aching
just wanting for more.

down to my marrows
my heart beats on time
but he's lost in his ocean
and the fog in his mind
broken and beaten
so much work left to do
i can't help him or save him
as much as i want to.

so here at an impasse
our paths don't converge
he knows how i feel
we have to diverge
it's not what i long for
the him that i see
he is a spectacular being
that i love with my bones.

my tattoo

i got some work done today on my tattoo. . . mary

(missy rising at kaze gallery is doing it for me)

i'm kind of swollen!  it will heal.  i was kind of worried about getting a tattoo on my arm, but now i realize how rare it is to wear short short sleeve shirts anyway.  well it's fall too so i'm pretty much always in long sleeves, no one even sees it!  i still show her off.

so she's not a traditional mary.  i was going to do spring on one arm and fall on the other but i had this strong urge to get mary.  

i have a lot of marys in my room.  one night i drew her.  i realized she would have breast fed jesus.  so i drew her breast feeding jesus, with tape over her mouth.  it was subversive and some would say sac-religious huh?  but mary wasn't given much of a voice was she? 

have you heard of the madonna/whore complex? 

The tendency for men to not be able to integrate the "dualisms" of women. Though EACH and EVERY female IS in fact fully capable of BOTH, it appears man's greatest challenge is to resolve them both in the same woman, thus these two aspects of the female must be relegated into two very separate and distinct categories--one or the other, black or white, Madonna or Whore. It's a shame men can't just accept that both are available to them in the same woman. i realized that's my mary. . . she's the dualism.  she's human.  she's sexy and she's saintly.

feel the love

do you follow posie gets cozy?

Alicia Paulson lives in portland so i love her pictures, but they just adopted a baby and man i can feel her love. . . i cried. . . so lovely

for christmas

i want this please

oct 22, 2005

my favourite thing is when life is like a movie.  check this. . . after a fantaboulous evening out with friends, new and old, a wonderful night of sleep, my good friend needed cheering up over brunch and bloody marys this morning. . . . sitting at a lovely dive, in walk two waiters from the breakfast place next door, lovely cross dressing breakfast servers, to take a quick shot before they run back to their tables.  ah, love is a battle field played the perfect soundtrack for the most perfect moment on an amazing fall morning.

first mention of a movie moment

Nov. 9th 2005

Asshole Warning signs

1.  False Representation

Possibly false, altered or old photos, ideas or words.

2.  Always says the perfect thing

Must have the perfect action to back up perfect statement.  As you know actions speak louder than words.  Also, you’ve heard the saying too good to be true, well, it is.

3.  Known Enemies or Adversaries

“But they are so nice, this person must have it wrong.”  They don’t, they know, do you really need to see why.  That’s what I thought.

4.  Poor Tipping

Anyone who has any sense of anything will know, YOU HAVE TO TIP WELL.  Servers make like $2 an hour.  Even if you drank more than you can afford, does not mean that they don’t deserve a good tip.

5.  Unsavory living situation

This may be a crack head roommate or no home to lay their head (except yours).  Yeah, may be beautiful, may all so be an asshole.

6.  Too Cool

This list is long.  Faux musician/artist.  Feigns self-destruction and champions positivity.  Possible defunct scenester/hipster.  Too stylish (see #7)

7.  Frequent Public Vanity

As in frequent lip product application, glances in mirror, hair fixing.  Reveals this beauty is only skin deep.

8.  Rationalizing morally or ethically reprehensible behavior

Need I say more?

9.  Poor Handshake

I know I’m not the only one who has learned about and experienced the negative effect of the cold dead fish.  Do not trust someone with a bad handshake, it is gross and it is wrong.

10.  Complement Fishing

They are the coolest, yet they ask for more??  Fishing is not necessary.

Failure to Pay Attention to these signs will result in:

~Nightmares/loss of sleep

~Losing sense of integrity

~Lies

~CRYING

~Deprecated self-image

~Unanswered phone calls (how many songs have been written about these beautiful assholes)

~Loss of trust

~Heart ache

~Possible actual physical pain

~Guaranteed emotional pain

~Need for vengeance and revenge

~Getting fucked over

Dec 6, 2005

bliss

worth is what is hard to see
making love won't set me free
i just can't let things be

but i still try
              and open these eyes.

perfection isn't what i strive for
constantly wonder is there more
i pick my dirty underware up off the floor

continue, i fly
               till the day we die.

so i repeat this over agian
convinced there won't be a bloody end
i know my will will not bend

i am worthy of this
                it is my bliss.

~abby jane~

Feb 22, 2006

today i was standing at the copy center at office depot on colofax and overheard 3 black women having a conversation behind me: "hey girl, i haven't seen you in forever." "yeah i was sick for 6 months, and i got a baby." "oh yeah" "yeah, i ran in to so and so and she doesn't want her baby" "i'll take it" "girl, you always want a baby" "yeah, i don't care if it is a boy or a girl." "she already has one baby and her due date is on the other baby's birthday, she can't handle another one." "yeah, i'll take a baby" "ok i'll tell her" um, excuse me. i didn't know this was the way it went. oh i don't want my baby and people are trading babies in the office depot's of denver??? that's crazy.

Aug 31 2006

i was driving and saw a woman tripping over her shoes. it seemed as if the right white sneaker had snuck off her heal and she was trying to get it back in. a blue sack was swinging in her right hand. her mousey brown hair was in her face and a strand was in her mouth. her face was destressed. was she having a day like mine? she swagered into the parking lot behind benders. she turned sharply to the left, i thought someone had called her name. perhaps she thought the same. she leaned against the wall for a moment, then turned to the silver suv to her right. i thought possibly she was about to put the bag into the trunk. from under the car i saw she set the small blue bag on the ground, she reached down. i thought she had dropped something and was about to pick it up. left hand on the ground. she fell on her face. directly on her face. she did not try and stop her fall. she did not get up. i called the police. i did not stop.

hot pink breifcase

wouldn't you take me more serious if i had this. . .

i really want this.

baby warhol

seriously. . . could i get palmer to dress like this?  these are so for parents but pretty freaking rad.

ego notes

You can tell when the ego is trying to lead (rather than the True Will) when there are annoying thought tape loops in the foreground of consciousness — But what if I do this?, but what if this happens?, but what if that happens? The ego-led mind keeps ricocheting back and forth like an overheated ping-pong match. When the ego and mind work together without the leadership of global intuition you get this sense of restless strain and anxious effort. Another way to tell that the ego is leading is when you are caught up in any of the following gerunds: fearing, hoping, dreading, desiring, wanting, wishing, doubting, pre-structuring, envying, supervising, lifeguarding, complaining, comparing, self- pitying, pleasure-seeking, self-aggrandizing and glorifying, indulging, anticipating, expecting, contriving, hedging, clinging, identifying, rationalizing, pushing, straining, and imagining negative possibilities. This list should give an idea of how much of the time the ego is seeking to dominate our process. Each of the gerunds is a function of doubt, the supervisory ego does not accept that the universe is unfolding as it should and is straining like a white-knuckled driver to wrest control. When you are following the Tao you can sense yourself in congruent alignment with your path, which may still have difficulties, but you know from the depths of your being that you are on the path. The ego wants to push for progress, and wants to clear up ambiguous and ambivalent situations by making some permanent, decisive choice. The way of Tao is to accept that you are in a state of ambiguity and ambivalence and wait in non-action until things become clear before going forward.

zap oracle

i just wanted to make some notes for myself from a reading on zap oracle. . . my friend just told me about it.  pretty right on for today 


"Every form of addiction is bad, no matter whether the narcotic be alcohol or morphine or idealism." — C.G. Jung

What are your addictions? The addictions could be to foods, intoxicants, compulsive sexuality, unworthy companions, grooved patterns of emotional reactivity, fundamentalist/absolutist rigidities of mind, poor quality cultural products — music, movies, porno, channel surfing, first-person shooter video games, etc. and any sort of habituated, mechanical patterns in your life. The positive aspect is that this is a propitious time to work on freeing yourself from addictions. You need to be your own wise alchemist, supervising what is entering your cauldron and where and on whom you bestow its contents.

1) Clarity - Know what you want to do in your life every day. Have clarity of goals, listen to feedback and adjust yourself to the feedback you receive from the world.

2) Center – You are in Balance. Your goal is to focus, to know how to avoid distractions, to become at one with what you're doing, with all of your attention under your control.

3) Choice - Knowing there are a variety of possibilities around you, that you're not determined by outside events but have choice and can move within it. Whatever you do, you do "at Choice".

4) Commitment- Care for what you're doing at all times. Remain conscious of what you care about. Commit to it.

5) Challenge - Keep upping your challenges as you master a certain level. Always make life more challenging." 

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain. 

tattoo inspiration fall

so i've had the idea to get spring and fall tattoos on my arms for some time. . . 

just getting some images together for the fall sleeve. 

love with a boy

i fell in love with a boy
who used me like a toy
used my beauty to feed his ego
then he let me go
shone his mirror on me
now aware and can let him be
settle into my solo life
and it really feels a'ight
with peace and blessings i shut the door
cuz it was meant to be no more

intersecting parallels

last night i had a divine meeting with the artist Brandon Maldanado.

his studio Intersecting Parallels is located at 3252 Pecos St in Denver. 

my friend and i were going to try and grab dinner at a place near by and we parked across the street.  we were walking by and his sign was out the the studio was open.  so we decided to go in.  right away i loved every thing, every where you looked there was something beautiful.  i have never in my life had a reaction to a piece of art the way did with this:

sleeping with your ghost 

i had been talking with my friend about how i needed to cry but couldn't.  i took one look at this and the tears came.  i've never had such an emotional reaction to a piece of art but i felt so blessed to be able to see it.  it's amazing!  all of his work is really beautiful and makes me FEEL in my head, heart and body.  i think he's so amazing and it felt like i was meant to stumble in there and get shook up!

 

The Beholder

I literally can feel my third eye when i look at this, i just LOVE it!

Balance

Our Lady of Merciful Fate

Hope you enjoy his work as much as I do. . .

garden of your mind

i've posted too many things on facebook today. . . 

today

i'm a butterfly just out of my cocoon
wings unfurled by the light of the super moon
sticky, bent, beautiful, they can't yet support me
but just wait and see i'll be flying high and free
bachelors are faced with a glimpse of pure joy
can they stand like a man or become a little boy?
i no longer feel the need to hide my greatest good
but neither should you, no one ever should  
taken by surprise and enjoying every turn
my life is an amazing movie, i live it, i learn
filling my head with masters insights
so this time i'll continue to burn bright
no longer a plight, i desire much more
and the path will lead me to where's the right door
i exercise, i practice, i create and i pray
something wonderful is happening and it get's better every day
i still have a well & when it runs over i cry
but i know i'll stay connected until the day that i die

magic last night in the bathroom

i pushed open the door and met Girl's eyes, "You're after me" she says.
"That's OK," I say.
We're leaning against the wall next to each other.
Proud Mary starts to play.  i start to sing along. . . Girl starts singing too "big wheels keep on turning, the proud mary keeps on burning. . . and we're rolling," out of the bathroom stall comes the low part, "rolling"
"rolling"
"rolling"
"rolling on the river"
in perfect harmony, right on key, right on time.  the song is sweet and thick. . .
my partners switch positions. . .
"i love you're cowboy boots"  i tell the woman coming out of the stall.
the beat begins to build. . . i start the choreography. . . facing the mirror.  cowboy boots steps in. . . we are dancing to the beat, doing the exact same choreography.  laughing.
it was my turn in the stall.

cowboy boots says, "i saw tina turner live a few years ago.  you know the walls parted and she came down the stairs and at that moment i thought, 'this woman was put on earth to teach women how to move in heels'".

win stuff. . .

my friend tyler's friend michelle allen is having a give away!  how cute is that peacock clock!  i totally have a space for that. . . go to this page to enter to win!

glitter love

playing around with glitter yesterday. . . twin glitter flames

this is the 2nd agreement from the four agreements.
this is a hard one. . .

Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

"if you get mad at me, I know you are dealing with yourself. I am the excuse for you to get mad. And you get mad because you are afraid, because you are dealing with fear. If you are not afraid, there is no way you will get mad at me. If you are not afraid, there is no way you will hate me. If you are not afraid, there is no way you will be jealous or sad."

"If you live without fear, if you love, there is no place for any of those emotions. If you don't feel any of those emotions, it is logical that you will feel good. When you feel good, everything around you is good. When everything around you is great, everything makes you happy. You are loving everything that is around you, because you are loving yourself. Because you like the way you are. Because you are content with you. Because you are happy with your life. you are happy with the movie that you are producing, a happy with your agreements with life. You are at peace, you are happy. You live in that state of bliss where everything is so wonderful, and verythign si so beautiful. In that sage of bliss you are making love all the time with everythign that you perceive."

heart

written by me today:
owning or caging me
that's not love, trust me dear
trust, you must, break through
if you don't you'll lose truth
with closed eyes
soul mates will pass by
stay connected you'll know
you've seen it in my eyes
you're stuck on the earth
you're bound by your fears
just exhale, let go, let flow the tears
rejected, dejected from source
you're lost & alone with no course
ask for guidance, follow signs
they were there this whole time
it starts with forgiveness
& if you want more,
gaze in the mirror, it will settle all scores
breathe and listen the path becomes clear
you'll feel divine spirit and it will carry you there
love on yourself
listen and dream
there's nothing conceived you can't achieve
you're a bright little starfucker
there's nothing to fear
let go of the darkness and bright light will clear
once you've done that let the power in
you'll understand what it is
and love will come in

mother

this is a rough draft of an idea i've been working on. . . just scribbled with some pencils the other night. . .

Maslow Predicted The Shift

Abraham Maslow (1908-70) was a psychologist who became well known for his "HIERARCHY OF HUMAN NEEDS". When he developed his theory in the 1950s, he predicted the transformation of humanity into ...a realm of spiritual transcendence, but he had no idea just how soon this would develop into a major movement.

Maslow’s hierarchy of human needs shows that basic human needs have to be fulfilled before people can attend to higher needs and values.

First, the basic physiological needs of food and shelter must be catered for in order to ensure survival.

Second, once food and shelter are obtained, safety and security must be achieved.

Third, acceptance by others is sought, in both the societal and personal senses. To fulfill this ‘belonging’ need, people become part of a group, a tribe, an extended family or a community.

When these deficiency, or outer-directed, needs are satisfied, then the individual works to acquire self-respect. Recognition by others produces self-esteem.

Once the outer needs are fulfilled, the inner-directed need for self-actualization comes into play. To self-actualize means to become the best you personally can be. Self-actualized people include those who have achieved material abundance, and also those who, as a decision of personal power, have chosen simplicity over the pursuit of further abundance. At some point, when a person says “That’s enough” to the endless pursuit of additional financial security, then they become free to accomplish anything that inspires their inner joy the most.

Self-actualization is achieved after the individual ceases to have deference to hierarchical authority, and instead matures into the ability to make their own rules of personal responsibility. Personal responsibility is always more powerful and effective than any system of imposed rules. For example, you can threaten to punish someone if they steal and hope that the threat works. But, a self-responsible person simply wouldn’t steal because they would feel empathy for the loss that a would-be victim would feel. They simply wouldn’t have the heart to do such a thing to another person.

It’s a matter of increased maturity. When a person abandons the impositions of external authority and becomes their own, self-directed authority, then they become far more functional in the world. This is, in fact, a higher state of consciousness, one which provides a higher vista of awareness. From this expanded vista, they see clearly how they as an individual can best serve humanity.

In this state of awareness, the person acquires the ability to think and analyze situations independently. As a result, new and creative solutions spring to mind. They have enough self-esteem to be able to clearly see their own needs, skills, strengths and weaknesses, and from that they see where they can best be of service to humanity.

Once basic needs are fulfilled, the next values to require attention relate to being. The first of these being-values is self-actualization, which is the instinctual need of a human to make the most of their unique abilities.

Above that, Maslow placed transcendence, which he considered a spiritual value. Traditional universities typically presume that spiritual matters are beyond the understanding of their students, so they present the Maslow hierarchy of human needs differently. They present it with self-actualization as the ultimate human aim, and omit the transcendence stage beyond that.

The being-values of self-actualization and transcendence are the higher, more beautiful aspects of human consciousness. They include unconditional love, altruism, inner joy, a love of nature, the development of intuition (in males as well as females), idealism, and a sense of wisdom which springs from within. These skills develop the right-brain functions of creativity and intuition.

In the 1950s, Maslow believed that only 2% of the population had achieved self-actualization. The mid-1960s changed all that when masses of people began the search for the higher values, such as unconditional love and spiritual wisdom. Today, that core group of progressive people has blossomed from 2% to over 20%, and is climbing every year.

The Shift is not a temporary by-product of the baby boom generation, or any other generation of modern culture. It is not a passing fad. It is not going away. It is a cosmic pressure that is unfolding and relentlessly increasing the frequency of all consciousness upon the planet.

It is a part of the plan of Infinite Being that we progress to the next stage of conscious human achievement. The Shift is, to put it simply, the most wonderful transformation in recorded history. This is where humanity gets to build, literally, Heaven on Earth. ~Owen Waters

got this here

diy reminder

i want to make one ( or 10 of these )
from design sponge

holy hot pink

sparkly shoes, yes please

oh divine, please let me get this. . . i want it, i want it, i may even NEED it!

trust your heart

cards from miss katie daisy. . . .
she illustrated a book for louise hay (who's morning and evening meditations i've been doing most every morning and night recently). louise hay thinks thinking may affect your health and in her book you can heal your life she said heart "represents the center of love and security." heart problems "Longstanding emotional problems. Lack of joy. Hardening of the heart. Belief in strain and stress." Heart Attack: "Squeezing all the joy out of the heart in favor of money or position, etc." the affirmations:
"My heart beats with the rhythm of love."
"joy. joy. joy. I lovingly allow joy to flow through my mind and body and experience."
"i bring joy back to the center of my heart. I express love to all."

what's love

i've been feeling pretty drained. it was a long fun weekend. i need to sleep in. i've got a couple ideas in my knoggin got to get them on the paper. . . only have sketches yet. i'll keep it up.

creatively tagged

worked on this a little more. got some stamps today :)

so my amazing talented buddy tyler tagged me. . . who should i ask?
my buddy elysia
anna over @ freeplay, who is the first person's blog i ever started following
and leila at illustrated ink even though i don't know her personally. . .
tyler you should answer my questions too ;p

The Rules

• You must post the rules
• Answer the 11 questions the tagger posted for you
• Create 11 new questions to ask the bloggers you tag
• Let them know you’ve tagged them

• 1. What’s your favorite pastime? recently it's been meditating
  
• 2. Name an art medium you’re itching to try: MOMA, when i was in new york i only got to go to the met and really would love to go back to the met again!
  
• 3. Most embarrassing moment you’ve ever experienced: when i was like 13 wearing a 2 piece swim suit and dove in the water for school swim class and was sitting on the side wiping water out of my eyes and my top was completely down and everyone was laughing at me.
  
• 4. If money were no object what would you order online right this minute to be delivered to your doorstep? a smart car
  
• 5. Do you idolize anyone? An artist? A musician? A celeb? not really idolize. i do love adele.
  
• 6. Do you believe in love at first sight? kind of.
  
• 7. Food, name a guilty pleasure: potato chips and french fries, it's been different since i'm mostly a vegan now, try and eat healthy.
  
• 8. Are you afraid of anything? i have an irrational fear of sharks
  
• 9. A favorite quote or motto: "Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." Ralph Waldo Emerson
  
• 10. Coffee or Tea? I love coffee but i try not and drink it, so tea
  
• 11. Do you love blogging? i do, but haven't been great at it!

1. what do you do to unblock when you're blocked creatively?

2. do you watch tv?

3. new favorite music?

4. what's your best and favorite self care?

5. what color are you most attracted to right now?

6. favorite book?

7. what medium haven't you tried that you would like to try?

8. city or country?

9. have you ever been to a psychic?

10. place you'd most like to travel too?

11. have you believe in synchronicity?

heart

i put these on my facebook already and i don't know if anyone actually reads this but i painted these. i went to this amazing sounding circle and meditation last night and was really feeling tuned in with spirit/god/divine ever you call it. i have been having so many synchronicities and wonderful things happen in my life and i feel they are like winks from the divine letting you know you are on the right path. . .
someone i know had a thing up on facebook about how you should not trust your heart, essentially because you're heart is evil. . . but when i am in tune with spirit, when i am connected i feel my head, heart and guts are all in synch. i can feel the energy in my body. i can feel the connection to spirit in my body, i feel how i am a reflection of god. . .

i am taking good care of myself. i am painting, mediating, doing yoga, therapy, praying, body work and got my hair done! i feel good. then my uncle said (in other words) i was heading for hell. tell me how that's a representation of being connected with spirit? it knocked me off my path today and i spent a few hours in hell.

i'm re-reading the 4 agreements and the first one is to be impeccable with your word (impeccable means with out sin). in brief: "Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love." someone telling me i'm going to hell or evil doesn't feel loving to me? speaking against your own self is hard huh? i have a tough time not beating myself up. totally a lesson right now.

i've also been doing lots of affermations, i got a louise hay mediations for morning and evening, that's been pretty great too. . . gonna do it right now! haven't been sleeping enough though. . .

free bird

i painted this. . . i've done a little more work on the bird cage since. the window is from an old life magazine from march 1962. it's a view from wright's fallingwater house. it couldn't have worked more perfectly. the madonna and child is Mantagna from the italian renassance, from an old book. it was black and white so i painted it.

now is my time to work on flying. . .
"love is a bird and it loves to be free. it needs the whole sky to grow." osho

i know. . .

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou

A free bird leaps on the back of the wind
and floats downstream till the current ends
and dips his wing in the orange suns rays
and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks down his narrow cage
can seldom see through his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing. 

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.
The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn
and he names the sky his own.

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped
and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

healing waters

so today i headed up the mountains with my boy and friend and her boy to idaho hot springs. . .

i've never been and i loved it!

the water felt SO good. . . i kept singing this. . .

then we stopped at mother cabrini shrine. . .

i had to get home and paint. . . i'm filled with spirit.