Thursday, September 23, 2010

break free

lot's going on. . . working, playing.
being creative (figuring out what to do for tyler so i can't share, yet:)
taking care of me.
taking care of my family.
enjoying the equinox AND full moon.
i made yummy butternut squash soup for our harvest dinner tonight.

one of my friends passed away yesterday. really still in shock a bit, i'm looking forward to the service, when ever that will be to start the healing from this grieving.
joe, i hope you're free now.

i've been obsessed with these songs lately. . .


Was it loneliness that brought you here
Broken and weak
Was it tiredness that made you sleep
Have you lost your will to speak
Was the earth spinning round
Were you falling through the ground
As the world came tumbling down
You prayed to God what have we done

Free me from these chains I need to change my way
Heal these broken wings I need to fly far away, far away, far away

Was it emptiness that made you weep
No more secrets to keep
Was it bitterness that gave you time
To forgive your sins
Was the earth spinning round
Were you falling through the ground
As the world came tumbling down
You prayed to God what have we done

Free me from these chains I need to change my way
Heal these broken wings I need to fly far away
Free me from these thoughts long forgotten down below
Take these angel's words give them life to carry on, carry on, carry on
Free me from these chains...

Oh and a spider just got my attention yesterday too!
Spider medicine is cool. (i usually use my medicine cards)

Spider is the weaver connecting the knowledge of the past with the possibilities of the future. Notice that the shape of the body loosely resembles the sign for infinity.

Also notice that the center of the web is always small (you), and the web ever expanding (your possibilities).

Spider cautions us not to get locked into the illusion that has made you what you think you are. Our behavior, and our belief systems, and our view of ourselves is locked into an illusion of who we truly are that was created for us by others; usually starting as a small child. As we grow, our life becomes a reflection of those illusions, and those of us who do not follow that pattern are "rebels" or "black sheep" or other terms that imply non-conformity.

We are locked into that illusion because it has become our "comfort zone", and it is our fears of the unknown and untested which keep us in that zone. It is far easier to live in the hell we know, than to stick our mental and emotional toes out into the world and chance discovering that there is another way which may be better for us.

Spider is telling us that the possibilities for each of us is only limited by our own view of ourselves. Notice that the web constantly grows, outward, still connected to that small center space. It is always reaching, always expanding, never satisfied with the status quo. When something of value get caught in the web, it is taken back to that small center and utilized; never wasted. It may be stored for later use, but it is never wasted.

The next time you come upon spider weaving its web, stop to really look. Notice the beauty and symmetry and balance; the careful and intricate design. Spider is telling you to have the courage to reach out and create your own tomorrows; to break out of the illusion that has you locked in a time-step, and discover who and what you truly are.

Monday, September 20, 2010


have you heard of NIA? is a sensory-based movement lifestyle that leads to health, wellness and fitness. It empowers people of all shapes and sizes by connecting the body, mind, emotions and spirit.

i got a coupon for a free class, i hope i can go check it out tomorrow night. . .

i also am obsessing over belly dancing too. i may or may not have ordered some costumes and dvds. i might just be a belly dancer for all hallows eve. .
i want a bunch of stuff from here now too. . .

Sunday, September 19, 2010

i was spontaneous!

i'm not very good about being spontaneous. . . but tonight i was. i went and checked out beats antique at the ogden theater, the opener was good too but i can't find their name. i really want to write a whole review but it's 1:30 am and i should go to bed. it was kind of like a hippy rave. i wish i would have worn a skirt and sandals with leggings i think. . . ya, it was pretty fun, they were pretty great, if you're into the same kind of stuff i'm into. tyler i think you and chad should totally go if you can. . .

then in the car driving home a fox sprang up to say "HI" and remind me what it is to be a fox.
fox medicine. . .

.:Foxy Medicine:.

The fox, because of its ability to blend into its surroundings, is given the reputation of being sly and cunning. When we call someone "foxy," we are not always being complimentary. We may be accusing them of trickery or dishonesty.

The word cunning, however, comes from the same Old English root as the word, kenning, which means to know, especially as applied to seeing something which isn't immediately visible. This can apply both to the fox's excellent vision and to the ability to anticipate. Fox's most important skill isn't being able to outrun the hounds, but to know in advance when they'll be on the hunt, and then making use of its equally important skill of camouflage.

Fox medicine can be an important skill when it comes to dealing with people. The gift of camouflage can be translated as the ability to stop and view an interpersonal situation with detachment, simply observing with all of one's senses. This especially includes opening up the less obvious senses, such as intuition.

Often the dynamics of a situation may seem obvious, but those who, instead of rushing to judgment, pay attention to both their outer and inner senses, may get an entirely different reading. When the outer situation and your inner senses don't match it is wise to follow the example of Fox, trust your intuition, and lay low.

An important aspect of Fox medicine is that, like Wolf, this animal is both monogamous and very devoted to its young. Many of its clever hunting tactics are designed to bring home food for the helpless kits and the nursing vixen. In like manner, our own alertness, and flexibility can serve more than our individual needs.

Fox is a powerful teacher for those who choose to live their lives consciously and deliberately. When we learn to detach from our surroundings and to observe with all of our senses, we, too, can anticipate and create the future.

if you see an animal and you want to know the medicine, just google it, or you can get a book. i have a book too but it's easier to copy and paste. there are good reminders for the natural world.

Saturday, September 18, 2010


i found an article about artist-in-residency programs in national parks in natural awakenings magazine. the national park services offers opportunities for 2 dimensional visual artists, photographer, sculptors, writers and craft artists to live an work in the parks from weeks to months! how cool would that be? i'd like to check out hot springs national park in arkansas or maybe hawaii?!?!

Friday, September 17, 2010


so cute huh?! i feel like a lazy mama :)
see more here found via here


arn't these super cute! from here, via here

Thursday, September 16, 2010

some books

so, my friend tyler said she wanted to read some books. . . i've been reading a lot recently. #1. i love the library & #2. i canceled cable for now. . .
one of my favorite books ever
i just got this book at a thrift store. . . pretty good find.
do you get sick at the change of seasons? you're not alone, i love this book and read this ever time the seasons change. it gives such good advice!
i just re-read this one, i love all of her books! i re-read them.
left behind, it's kind of a guilty pleasure, i've read 11 in the series. the character development is really good!
grave sight (i've devoured the series and all of her books. watch out they'll suck you in!)
ancient secret of the fountain of youth, you know you want to know what they are!

what have i missed? got any good reads for me :)

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

east high

so kiko's doing his student teaching for east high school here in denver and i've always wanted to see the mural painted in the library. it was painted in 1934 by Hugh Weller as part of the Works Art Project in the depression. I wrote my final term paper (22 pages) on why we need a Arts project NOW. How amazing would it be to have the government pay for art. I really want to get that paper published, it was really good and I was proud of it. . .
anyway the mural was beautiful. not at all what i expected but it's great.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

labour day

we got to hang out in the afternoon and had a few friends over. it was nice not to work, i worked a lot over the weekend, but had to take actual labor day off or i would have freaked out. nice to have a moment to breathe, and laugh with friends and family in the back yard.

happy bithday

my good buddy tyler sent me this amazing painting!
i have it right in my front room as soon as you walk in it's staring you down.
thanks so much tyler, i've been trying to imagine what to paint you for your birthday :)
p.s. devotchka rocks any time any where! they were great. the venue was pretty cool too being right on the river. cool people and just mellow and lovey!

my pregnant peach tree. . .