ok so i messed up and didn't read the discription correctly. last year was flapper. this year is noir/femme fatal. i google that but there isn't like a distinct look. i can't wear a flapper dress that's like dressing up for the wrong party it feels like.
these are images. . . A femme fatale (pronounced /ˌfɛm fəˈtæl/ or /ˌfɛm fəˈtɑːl/; French: [fam faˈtal], with all [a]'s) is a mysterious and seductive woman[1] whose charms ensnare her lovers in bonds of irresistible desire, often leading them into compromising, dangerous, and deadly situations
i've been thinking about wearing my wedding dress, that i never wore. it's tea lenght, a line. kiko has a tux. red lipstick. . . or i'll just wear my black wiggle dress. . .
so i just got this dress for new years. it was less expensive then the black and copper one. . . so now what shoes? what do you think of these? i want my hair like this kind of. . . maybe black shoes? brown? hmm. . .
kiko and i are going to howl, with my friends cadee and sarah, for new years. it's speak easy/1920's themed.
i have 3 hours to decide if i should bid on this dress on ebay. . . it's pretty expensive. there is a cream one that is less expensive but it's so pretty. . . i'm in love with a dress. isn't it perfect?!
i may go cream. . . especially since i've only made $15 today at work.
i've been feeling pretty shook up since getting home, still working on landing. . . it was really great to be home, wasn't a very relaxing trip now. i've been dreaming of sandy beaches. . . my parents are going to hawaii for a month! so wishing i could go.
a bunch of things happened while i was gone that shook me up. my dreams got a little shook up, trying to figure out the new face of my dreams. there were many blessings, lessons and gifts but still working on processing. i finally got unpacked today. . . it took that long. i've had to work doubles every day since i got back, today was my first day off, and i got the cold everyone got.
anyway, i had an idea just now, maybe a first step? say a prayer if you can so i will know if it's the right first step to make to get to where we want to go (not sure what that looks like yet but will keep dreaming). thanks xo
this is the view from my parent's friend robert's apartment on the bluffs in white salmon washington. view of the columbia river and hood river oregon. . . ah so beautiful! it was nice and sunny in portland on the way to the airport and a great view of mt. hood! it was FOGGY! palmer didn't know what it was, he was scared and thought it was smoke. he made me carry him. bonneville dam
i had never really been aware of charley harper before but whole foods has this day timer: i LOVE his pictures. i don't really need a day timer but want to buy this one anyway. . . but should probably get these very cute cards. . . love love love i think this is from the golden book, holy snap i want to find this golden book at a thrift store for 2 bucks! then sell it for $200! geez his art is really inspiring to me. i love the simplicity of line, the bold colors and the emotion. it's such a talent to convey so much with so much simplicity. most people know that editing isn't easy, to be simple can take skill and practice! in all things. tyler's post here discussed both simplicity and capitalism too, free market choice. i love the idea that you vote with every purchase you make (that was at the end of food inc.). it was a real syncronicity to be reminded to actually really think about and plan your purchase. quality not quantity. to buy things that actually add a benefit to your life. he who dies with the most toys does not win because you can't take that with you. having things in your life that increase your joy. greed isn't good but it's hard not to have a lot of very strong feelings associated with money, and it's really hard to look them in the face sometime because there are some pretty horrible feelings. FEAR. WORRY. ENVY. that's a part of the new good life. i'm reading john robbin's book: his story is very interesting, he was the heir to the baskin robbins company and he walked away from it. would you? could you? hmmm. . . he's got drive and courage and is very honest. i find him very inspiring too.
and watched this movie, michael moore can be dramatic but there is a lot of truth in this as well. it gives you some awareness and insight into where our country is now. when the bible says beware of wolves in sheep's clothing, i think it could be talking about guys in suits:
so i started this scarf last year for kiko's birthday and didn't get it done for his birthday, or christmas. . . but i found it and just finished it. it took a long time (minus the break). . . i do love him mucho. he's so wonderful.
stuffed pumpkins, mashed potatos with gravy (my friend trey made the gravy and it was SO good, i'm totally going to get the recipe), green beans, rolls, cranberry and pumpkin cupcakes! all with no animal protein! it was VERY good!
so i'm on my new mini computer. i really would have loved a mac book or something but unfortunately i don't have money for that right now and this little tiny thing will be fine for my emails and office stuff. . . it's pretty little, and a little slow but it does the job so far.
so kiko and i have still been eating plant based (kiko has lost 20#! and is now choosing to eat this way because of how amazing it makes him feel!)
my friend cadee asked me how i did it, got kiko to give up meat.
honestly it makes you feel so much better. eating animal protien is actually terrible for you (read the china study if you don't believe me. . . eat a lot of animal protien and increase your risk of heart disease, cancer and diabetes not to meantion obesity!)
dinner tonight:
sweet potato tacos:
diced sweet potatos, baby bellas, red pepper, and onions sauted in veggie broth and a little olive oil.
served on fresh tortillas with salsa, romain, chopped tomatos, and a little daiya "cheese"
kale and avacado slaw:
raw kale
mushed up avacado
diced red pepper
diced red onion
a little lime juice
a squirt of braggs amino (this stuff is awesome if you don't use it already)
i was going to make corn too but forgot and we were full by the time i remembered!
i saw this a while ago on the sartorialist and keep dreaming about it. . . hmm. . . i can't afford a louis vuitton dress. sometimes i rue the day i learned what louis vuitton is.
so instead of making a painting for tyler, i was inspired to make a dotee doll (she's in there). i'm ready to send her tyler. . . i need your address because i am an unorganized and didn't write it in my address book. . . like my mess of a "studio". i love the library. . . i can shop and shop and get what ever i want :) i got hundreds of dollars worth of books. i have almost my limit of 5o items checked out right now. a majority are for palmer. . . i love the seasons book, the pictures are amazing. i also got the cat's pajamas. the pictures are great in there too, haven't read the story yet.
did you know (tyler) that animal protein is associated with decreased bone health? a study from 2010 with more than 750 girls, meat and eggs were found to weaken bones. you may want to check out thrive for your future training.
i also am going to partner with peaceful mountain for Whole Foods Wash Parks, grand re-opening on oct 23rd! i'm pretty excited i thought of the idea and i'll get to learn more about peaceful mountains great products!
feeling inspired by many sources. . . heal your self with food. i'm afraid for kiko i'm moving gently away from meat. raw foodie and vegan friends (and bill clinton) are inspiring me to eat in a way that makes me feel my best and be healthy, not only for me but for the world.
What's this feeling? My love will rip a hole in the ceiling Givin' myself to you from the essence of my being Sing to my God all these songs of love and healing Want Mashiach now so it's time we start revealing
You're all that I have and you're all that I need Each and every day I pray to get to know you please I want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me You're the air that I breathe Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe I'll stand on my own two feet Won't be brought down on one knee Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights Crown Heights burnin' up all through the twilight Said, thank you to my God, now I finally got it right And I'll fight with all of my heart, and all a' my soul, and all a' my might
being creative (figuring out what to do for tyler so i can't share, yet:) taking care of me. taking care of my family. enjoying the equinox AND full moon. i made yummy butternut squash soup for our harvest dinner tonight.
one of my friends passed away yesterday. really still in shock a bit, i'm looking forward to the service, when ever that will be to start the healing from this grieving. joe, i hope you're free now.
i've been obsessed with these songs lately. . .
"Spinning"
Was it loneliness that brought you here Broken and weak Was it tiredness that made you sleep Have you lost your will to speak Was the earth spinning round Were you falling through the ground As the world came tumbling down You prayed to God what have we done
Free me from these chains I need to change my way Heal these broken wings I need to fly far away, far away, far away
Was it emptiness that made you weep No more secrets to keep Was it bitterness that gave you time To forgive your sins Was the earth spinning round Were you falling through the ground As the world came tumbling down You prayed to God what have we done
Free me from these chains I need to change my way Heal these broken wings I need to fly far away Free me from these thoughts long forgotten down below Take these angel's words give them life to carry on, carry on, carry on Free me from these chains...
Oh and a spider just got my attention yesterday too! Spider medicine is cool. (i usually use my medicine cards)
Spider is the weaver connecting the knowledge of the past with the possibilities of the future. Notice that the shape of the body loosely resembles the sign for infinity.
Also notice that the center of the web is always small (you), and the web ever expanding (your possibilities).
Spider cautions us not to get locked into the illusion that has made you what you think you are. Our behavior, and our belief systems, and our view of ourselves is locked into an illusion of who we truly are that was created for us by others; usually starting as a small child. As we grow, our life becomes a reflection of those illusions, and those of us who do not follow that pattern are "rebels" or "black sheep" or other terms that imply non-conformity.
We are locked into that illusion because it has become our "comfort zone", and it is our fears of the unknown and untested which keep us in that zone. It is far easier to live in the hell we know, than to stick our mental and emotional toes out into the world and chance discovering that there is another way which may be better for us.
Spider is telling us that the possibilities for each of us is only limited by our own view of ourselves. Notice that the web constantly grows, outward, still connected to that small center space. It is always reaching, always expanding, never satisfied with the status quo. When something of value get caught in the web, it is taken back to that small center and utilized; never wasted. It may be stored for later use, but it is never wasted.
The next time you come upon spider weaving its web, stop to really look. Notice the beauty and symmetry and balance; the careful and intricate design. Spider is telling you to have the courage to reach out and create your own tomorrows; to break out of the illusion that has you locked in a time-step, and discover who and what you truly are.
have you heard of NIA? is a sensory-based movement lifestyle that leads to health, wellness and fitness. It empowers people of all shapes and sizes by connecting the body, mind, emotions and spirit.
i got a coupon for a free class, i hope i can go check it out tomorrow night. . .
i also am obsessing over belly dancing too. i may or may not have ordered some costumes and dvds. i might just be a belly dancer for all hallows eve. . i want a bunch of stuff from here now too. . .
i'm not very good about being spontaneous. . . but tonight i was. i went and checked out beats antique at the ogden theater, the opener was good too but i can't find their name. i really want to write a whole review but it's 1:30 am and i should go to bed. it was kind of like a hippy rave. i wish i would have worn a skirt and sandals with leggings i think. . . ya, it was pretty fun, they were pretty great, if you're into the same kind of stuff i'm into. tyler i think you and chad should totally go if you can. . .
then in the car driving home a fox sprang up to say "HI" and remind me what it is to be a fox. fox medicine. . .
.:Foxy Medicine:.
The fox, because of its ability to blend into its surroundings, is given the reputation of being sly and cunning. When we call someone "foxy," we are not always being complimentary. We may be accusing them of trickery or dishonesty.
The word cunning, however, comes from the same Old English root as the word, kenning, which means to know, especially as applied to seeing something which isn't immediately visible. This can apply both to the fox's excellent vision and to the ability to anticipate. Fox's most important skill isn't being able to outrun the hounds, but to know in advance when they'll be on the hunt, and then making use of its equally important skill of camouflage.
Fox medicine can be an important skill when it comes to dealing with people. The gift of camouflage can be translated as the ability to stop and view an interpersonal situation with detachment, simply observing with all of one's senses. This especially includes opening up the less obvious senses, such as intuition.
Often the dynamics of a situation may seem obvious, but those who, instead of rushing to judgment, pay attention to both their outer and inner senses, may get an entirely different reading. When the outer situation and your inner senses don't match it is wise to follow the example of Fox, trust your intuition, and lay low.
An important aspect of Fox medicine is that, like Wolf, this animal is both monogamous and very devoted to its young. Many of its clever hunting tactics are designed to bring home food for the helpless kits and the nursing vixen. In like manner, our own alertness, and flexibility can serve more than our individual needs.
Fox is a powerful teacher for those who choose to live their lives consciously and deliberately. When we learn to detach from our surroundings and to observe with all of our senses, we, too, can anticipate and create the future.
if you see an animal and you want to know the medicine, just google it, or you can get a book. i have a book too but it's easier to copy and paste. there are good reminders for the natural world.
i found an article about artist-in-residency programs in national parks in natural awakenings magazine. the national park services offers opportunities for 2 dimensional visual artists, photographer, sculptors, writers and craft artists to live an work in the parks from weeks to months! how cool would that be? i'd like to check out hot springs national park in arkansas or maybe hawaii?!?!
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