projection rejection

my projection
leads to your rejection

rejection from self
voids universe's wealth

lost and alone
you have no home

we're connected infinitely
collaboration is the key

to strength and creativity
to setting ourselves free

angst

i wish i could see you more
makes me think i should see you less
heaven help me whilst i do my very best
babest and magick are what i feel when we're together
but seems like you feel like it is just whatever
all i want to do is to run to you
all i want to do is to run from you
just brake me already i can't take the anxt
it's my fault i feel it but my heart knows no other way
if feelings and attractions can be turned on a dime
i'll pay it all if you'd get the fuck off my mind.

the thing about the tooth fairy is

the price we put on our children's teeth.
those 'itty bitty things
grown out of our own flesh and bones
that Tooth! the one that's fallen
sym·bol·izes
the winds of change
well, you've heard the story
one cell from Me and
one cell from. . .
Him.
the mom and the pops & the birds and the bees!
then there was YOU!
oh, glorious you 
And the stars. . . 
the stars!!
you wouldn't believe the stars that night!
lucky we have this picture.
you can see it here.
man did they shine,
but not at all like ordinary stars.
they literally shone with rainbows.
it Really Happened That Night.
and a child was born
created out of something so small
you can't even see it with your eyes.
not unlike those stars
They are the same thing when you look up close.
Ain't it beautiful when your mind is blown?
most perfect beautiful amazing miracle of mine.
i am blessed, so BLESSED!
To be THE ONLY FAIRY in the world
that gets the chance to pay $5. . .
actually it's a steal
it's worth a million.
this sweet little ivory gem
gifted from the universe
it's worth
every single,
shiny,
copper,
penny.

written by me now

lion

my birthday was just a few days ago.  today is the new moon in leo. . . 

watch out world.  sometimes i feel the embodiment of lion.  i feel fierce.  i can feel the power and strength of a lion coursing through my veins.  

read up on the new moon in leo!

feeling much better

after making some changes and a few good crys

 meeting new friends and hanging by the fire

 digging in the dirt, even if it's only a little dirt to be had

 painting (star wars shoe's for my little lovey)

and feeling the pain associated with wearing my heart on my sleeve. . .

everything is going. . .

it feels like everything is going wrong. . . . this is not at all what i want.  my son has major dental work that needs to be done.  i've never felt worse in my whole life.  my fucking stupid cat is in heat.   all things i should have taken care of before today.  today is the day and i didn't deal with it.  then i was reminded, in a round about way. . . . oh abby you can make good choices.  you can do things the right way.  you DO make good choices.  but i'm afraid i'm going to put this cat out.  like on the serious.   this is the worst thing ever.  she is the worst cat ever. 

do this chant. . .

the bird

I got a show going on next saturday night 3/23 at the deer pile. . . 

i really want to make one of these, but i think like a raven, ya know. . . wouldn't that be sick!

i've been trying to think of a name for myself producing. . . what do you think of blissed out productions?  

Kitty Crimes is playing!  i'm so stoked. . . she is so amazingly talented!